Well I know it have said this before, and sorry for repeating myself, but I enjoy time on trains thinking and being silent. Today I have been lucky enough to have some great time in silence, just being with myself and thinking about life and all that is occurring. Plus some good time to read and pray.
Self awareness was something that struck me today. The idea of us, as humans, being aware of how we relate with others and even ourselves. I was reflecting on the fact that I know how I perceive others, whether it is my children, friends, family or people I work with. But do I really know myself? Do I really know how others see me?
For work I am completing a feedback session where I receive information from all levels, whether above or below me. This is helpful, even though very challenging, but it doesn’t tell me how I would see myself if I was able to observe myself.
I would love to be able to come and observe myself one day, to see what I do, what I dislike or what is plain silly about myself.
One of the ways I have been able to almost “observe” myself, is when I hear others use terms, sayings or words that I use and see how I feel or react to them. This has been helpful for me as a way to see what I say or do and see how I perceive it. Often I do not like it and as a result stop doing it or saying it.
Life is a journey and you never really are at the final point until you die. It is a constant journey of Death and rebirth, change and renewal. I used to think I knew everything when I was younger (I am still not very old! ) but now I realise I know so little. There is so much to learn about and the one of the people I feel that I will always need to get to know more about is me.
Reflecting and evaluating who I am, and who I am becoming, is a way that I can become the person I am meant to be. Obviously God is a big part of this process, I can’t do this on my own!
Thanks Train trip, I know it meant I had to get up at 4.30am, but it has given me a wealth of time to think and reflect on my life and what it means! I think I need a few more train trips yet to get me sorted!
